Today just meet up with a friend, went for coffee after dinner with her. To the fav coffee outlet wher we used to frequent. Actually do have a lot to tell her, but in the end did not do so. Maybe afraid she wouldn't want to listen or i will disappoint myself. Too bad next day have to work otherwise might chat even later. Thanks for ur x'mas gift, sorie didn't prepare any this year.

These few weeks have been facing alot of dilemas and seems like self torturing all the while. Don't know what can describe my mood and situation. Just want to go away, go to a place whereby no body knows me and start anew. With you, with you not.

Seem like falling to a deep pit whereby nobody understand me or bother to understand me, to listen to me. Makes me feel like these 25yrs has been wasteful all the while. Maybe i'm the root of the problem, but not others. Become doubting myself most of the time. Hardly can get up. now still the same...

Today is the New Year Eve, i hope everything will fade away and i be able to gain a new life.
Wish everyone a good year ahead!
(althou i know hardly people reads my blog.)